The doc says I'm in surveillance mode. Basically this means that I get a CT scan every year and get my tumor markers checked every 3 months. Otherwise I'm supposed to notify her if I start having any new symptoms. So far so good.
I am scheduling an appointment to get an IUD placed. I need the progesterone in the Mirena to balance out the daily estrogen that I'm currently taking. Rather than take progestin in pill form every 3-4 months, I can leave my Mirena in for over 5 yrs. I'm not looking forward to the pain, and I have a nice little stash of oxycodone just for the occasion. I have actually had the experience of inserting one and I know for a fact that they are extremely painful unless you have had kids. Thank god for drugs...
October 20, 2009
September 25, 2009
Leave of Absense
I think this will be the second to last post for awhile unless something new comes up. Everything seems to be going ok on the cancer front. I have an appointment with my gyn onc on Monday so I will update about that. I am so happy to be done with everything and my big sunburn on my back is finally starting to heal, although now it looks like some kind of fungus because it's lighter than the rest of the skin on my tan back. I also got my port removed a couple of weeks ago so I am most excited about that. No more alien probe/tumor on my chest!
Other than that I have come to another major roadblock in my life. After talking with the nursing program director and dean (or yelling rather), it turns out that I won't be returning to school until spring quarter which is in March. Fuck that. I was told that I would be able to finish up with independent study, doing clinicals this fall and winter and then being done by March. The director instead tells me now that they have no one to teach the one-hour seminar included with the course, and so now I have to reenter the program with the upcoming cohort at the same time I took time off. They said it was "for the best" so I could allow myself to heal fully. Honestly, this is the dumbest thing I have heard in awhile because taking 6 months off IS NOT good for my education at this point. I need continuous clinical experience- with a big break like this I am likely to be extremely behind. I'm scared that I will be so behind that I will again have to repeat the course. WTF?!? Fuck Seattle U. I'm so done with their fucking program.
Sucks cause now I have no job and no school, meaning that my loans go into repayment mode soon. And I lose all the loan money I have been using to live on. Of course I told this to my dean and they apparently don't give a shit.
So now I am figuring out what to do with myself. Yesterday I returned from a 2 week visit to the Midwest to see my family and friends. Now in a week I am going on a road trip along the west coast from Seattle down to L.A. with a good friend. Should be another 2 weeks. Like I have anything else to do... I have been looking for jobs but so far have been denied new graduate opportunities because there are only 1-2 openings at the major hospitals around Seattle. I have no experience for the rest of the nursing jobs, plus no one is willing to hire an RN who will just quit as soon as she finds a nurse practitioner position. So frustrating.
Well that's all for now. Hope everyone out there is well.
Other than that I have come to another major roadblock in my life. After talking with the nursing program director and dean (or yelling rather), it turns out that I won't be returning to school until spring quarter which is in March. Fuck that. I was told that I would be able to finish up with independent study, doing clinicals this fall and winter and then being done by March. The director instead tells me now that they have no one to teach the one-hour seminar included with the course, and so now I have to reenter the program with the upcoming cohort at the same time I took time off. They said it was "for the best" so I could allow myself to heal fully. Honestly, this is the dumbest thing I have heard in awhile because taking 6 months off IS NOT good for my education at this point. I need continuous clinical experience- with a big break like this I am likely to be extremely behind. I'm scared that I will be so behind that I will again have to repeat the course. WTF?!? Fuck Seattle U. I'm so done with their fucking program.
Sucks cause now I have no job and no school, meaning that my loans go into repayment mode soon. And I lose all the loan money I have been using to live on. Of course I told this to my dean and they apparently don't give a shit.
So now I am figuring out what to do with myself. Yesterday I returned from a 2 week visit to the Midwest to see my family and friends. Now in a week I am going on a road trip along the west coast from Seattle down to L.A. with a good friend. Should be another 2 weeks. Like I have anything else to do... I have been looking for jobs but so far have been denied new graduate opportunities because there are only 1-2 openings at the major hospitals around Seattle. I have no experience for the rest of the nursing jobs, plus no one is willing to hire an RN who will just quit as soon as she finds a nurse practitioner position. So frustrating.
Well that's all for now. Hope everyone out there is well.
September 4, 2009
August 26, 2009
Chemo DONE
Chemo is DONE! hopefully I never have to spend another day in the chemically-rank infusion ward! Now just 6 more radiation treatments!
I have enough hair to make little spikes! And full eyebrows! And a stupid rectangular sunburn on my back where I got radiation :(
I have enough hair to make little spikes! And full eyebrows! And a stupid rectangular sunburn on my back where I got radiation :(
August 18, 2009
Radiation sucks!
Not much to report. Radiation sucks. I'm so tired that I can do about one errand a day, and that errand is to drive to radiation. I don't have any diarrhea, but I have been nauseous a few times in the last week. Kinda randomly. And I am starting to get really bad chemo brain. I'm forgetful and am having a hard time bring up words to mind when speaking. Arghhhhhhhhhhh over a week to go...
I see the radiation oncologist once a week to go over my symptoms and the progress of the treatments. At our last meeting he recommended that I do an extra 3 treatments aimed at the area over my para-aortic nodes where the highest tumor was found. I was like, whatever, what's 3 extra days going to matter? Well we'll see now cause I'm getting really tired of this.
My doctor hadn't order a CA-125 for me yet so I demanded to get it drawn last week. I feel like they have totally forgotten about me- I hadn't had the test in almost 3 month! But all is good, I got it back and it was 9! I think that is my second lowest number yet. And it had better be cause I'm not doing this double whammy preventative chemo-radiation combo for nothing!
Other than that... My sis came to visit last week. We spend a good portion of the time napping or watching movies on my bed. She was just as tired as me! We did go to Karaoke and a fun Madonna-Elvis party though. She dressed up like Like-A-Virgin Madonna in a white corset, and I did the whole cone-boob thing. They were rocking costumes! Pictures to come...
I see the radiation oncologist once a week to go over my symptoms and the progress of the treatments. At our last meeting he recommended that I do an extra 3 treatments aimed at the area over my para-aortic nodes where the highest tumor was found. I was like, whatever, what's 3 extra days going to matter? Well we'll see now cause I'm getting really tired of this.
My doctor hadn't order a CA-125 for me yet so I demanded to get it drawn last week. I feel like they have totally forgotten about me- I hadn't had the test in almost 3 month! But all is good, I got it back and it was 9! I think that is my second lowest number yet. And it had better be cause I'm not doing this double whammy preventative chemo-radiation combo for nothing!
Other than that... My sis came to visit last week. We spend a good portion of the time napping or watching movies on my bed. She was just as tired as me! We did go to Karaoke and a fun Madonna-Elvis party though. She dressed up like Like-A-Virgin Madonna in a white corset, and I did the whole cone-boob thing. They were rocking costumes! Pictures to come...
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