Not much going on

So there hasn't been much going on lately. I've been feeling pretty good in comparison to the other rounds with this new drug. I noticed that I have much more energy which is very nice. My appetite is the same as always which is pretty good- almost too good... I keep craving crap: i.e. sweets, chocolate, fried crap, chips, etc. I am still under my normal weight at 128-130 so I'm feeling lucky that I can get away with eating all that stuff. I have no more than 5 eyelashes left on my lower lids which makes my eyes much less prominent. It reminds me of when the first time I saw my red-haired friend without her black mascara- her eyes were so naked with no definition. Amazing how eyelashes change your appearance. I still have most of my top set although they have thinned. Now I wake up with more goop in my eye because I have nothing to protect them from the dust. My eyebrows are really thin but I haven't lost anymore than from the last round. What interests me is that I have a little more hair growth than before- light brown long hairs spread sparsely throughout my scalp. I'm wondering why only some follicles are producing hair- it makes me worried that I will have bald spots in the future- God i hope not!!!

I spent last week back on Orcas Island with a group of 8 friends. We stayed in cabins and BBQed all weekend directly on the beach. We went clamming and filled an entire bucket! We also saw some other odd creatures: a 10-legged orange starfish, 2 sets of seal/sea lion bones; a 14inch or so large millipede-like creature that freaked me out, and a geoduck. When we found the geoduck we accidentally cut it with the shovel and a tiny crab was inside the stomach. It was amazingly still alive and so we freed it from being dinner. We also found a crab just sitting on the beach so we caught it and later cooked it that night. It was pretty delicious but I was pretty disgusted the way it was cooked: whoever was preparing the water let it boil and then turned the burner off so that the crab was initially cooked in warm water- so that it experienced a much more painful death as it was slowly cooked to death. We also went kayaking and fishing, although nobody was able to catch any fish. We did catch one thing: my friend dropped her camera in off the pier and so we were able to fish that out! All together, it was fun times with good friends on a beautiful beach

I'm spending most of my time now studying, as last week my professor warning me that I was at risk of failing her class because I had failed two quizzes. She recommended that I withdraw from this quarter and take MORE time off. Well, I said fuck that! There were 11 quizzes this quarter and I only did poorly on those because I wasn't there for the lectures as I was in Illinois with my mom. So now I am determined to prove her wrong and ace this class! After all, I have an entire week to study so there is really no excuse for me not to do well. The only thing I am worried about is that my final is AGAIN the Friday after chemo. This time I am going to try for an extension because last time I was wiped out the whole week and brain dead.

That's all for now- Chemo # 5 on Monday!